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Anth0ny

Sicc OG
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Jan 29, 2004
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This dude OD'd on cam last night...killed himself.

Shits fucked up...R.I.P.

He started this thread for people to watch on cam..his names CandyJunkie on there. Vids got removed, pics on page 59.

http://forum.bodybuilding.com/showthread.php?t=112065561

paramedics comin in pic....

http://i35.tinypic.com/15yx3jd.png


Suicide note:

To Whom It May Concern,
I am going to leave this for whoever stumbles across my bookmarks later on.
I hate myself and I hate living. I think that if someone who knows me
reads this they will know who I am. So I will leave this unsigned. I am
an a@#hole. I have let everyone down and I feel as though I will never
change or never improve. I am in love with a girl and I know that I am
not good enough for her. I have come
to believe that my life has all been meaningless. I keep trying and I
keep failing. I have thought about and attempted suicide many times in
the past. I used to think of my failure as some mystical way of telling
me that I was really meant for something meaningful. The only thing I
dread, besides the pain, is the way my family will suffer. I do not want
my mother or father to think that it was anything they did that lead me
to kill myself. I never really had any plans of leaving a note. I
thought that I would not be able to describe why I want to do this and I
am right. There is no way to tell you or anyone else why I dread every
new day. My father had such high expectations for me and tried to give
me every opportunity to improve upon myself. I let him down. I think
that I am a major disappointment to him. I have a job but I?m always broke
and I am in college but barely, I show up to class but that?s about it.
I want my life to end. I am tired of f@#$ing up everything. I
am tired of people always telling me that they do not like me. I am
tired of trying to be decent. I hope that someone finds this post and I
hope that my parents know that I f@#$ed up not them. It is my fault I
screwed up my own life.
The hate that rages within me, rages not for those I love so dearly or
those who have crossed my path.
This hate rages full force towards me and only me.
I have long forgiven those who've hurt me, but I have not and cannot
come to terms to forgive myself for the things I have done to myself, and
the things I've done to hurt those in my life.
You have all touched my life in one way or another,
especially those whom I call family.
I cannot tell you how sorry I am for ending my life the way I did. I
hope that you can all find it in your heart to see it as way for me not
suffering anymore and that I am finally at rest with myself, for being at
rest with the guilt that constantly ate at me for so long.
Please forgive me all for taking my own life so early. I tried so hard
to fight against this strong battle. I have reached out for help so many
times, and yet I believe, I was turned away because of the things I did,
that it is a punishment I am willing to take, for I know that being who I am
has only brought myself and others pain.
I love you all and will forever live within the memories we created.
Forgive me.
Love always and forever,
As for my signature I will leave you with a quote so that if anyone
reads this they will know it's me, "Can?t feel pain if your dead? Just Saying"
 
Nuttkase

Nuttkase

not nolettuce
#6
Jun 5, 2002
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That's the same forum that started the whole thing with the super ugly asian chick too.

This isn't the first time someone has commited suicide on webcam on a forum or in a chat room and I'm sure it won't be the last.
 
E

ESFCE

Sicc OG
#9
Dec 4, 2004
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i saw the video clip of dude before it got taken down...he was def. not breathing and you see a piece of a doorframe land on the bed from the cops bustin the door down and he doesnt flinch. then the cops come in pointing a laser at his leg, and check on him to see if hes dead....see the webcam on the computer and push it away
 
Ethereal

Ethereal

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Mar 18, 2003
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Nuttkase said:
That's the same forum that started the whole thing with the super ugly asian chick too.

This isn't the first time someone has commited suicide on webcam on a forum or in a chat room and I'm sure it won't be the last.
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I've seen this happen once before. Not literally before my eyes, but the day after in almost the same manner. Dude was in a chat program (can't remember exactly, might have been IRC) and he was literally typing shit while he was dying. Towards the end there weren't any words, just jibberish. Turns out it was all real. Except this guy, from what I remember, didn't mean to do it. He got on the chat client and told people what he had taken. Someone called poison control and told them what he had taken and they said if the guy was serious, he is likely to die if he is not helped. No one came to help him.

This is disturbing. I just looked at dudes myspace and it only makes the whole thing that much more fucked up.
 
BOOBOO619

BOOBOO619

Sicc OG
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Apr 26, 2006
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Fucking internet these days.

People are getting more and more insensible to death. Sucks for kids because sooner or later empathy will be a thing of the past.
 
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