youre the sole problem for anything thats bothering you. step up and fix it.
i know alot of peopel way worse off than you, family troubles and ssi.
1) be the bigger man and work it out with your fam
2) get a job, a hustle, or somethin
3) go out and find somethin to do with ya life EG: go to school, some shit
if those 3 fail go get a tall can a pack of smokes and some weed and see what happens