I feel you Cuddie! It's only been 8 days in this new year, but I have taken life alot differently now. I'm finally living and not trying hard to stay on the straight line.
As for Sinn's comment... I really don't think that people who believe in God are weak minded. Some people just like to look for a good ending, that's all. We all know that dying rarely ends good... but feeling like there is something out there that can help you isn't so bad, at least to help stay positive... -Just my .02...