Lets take this back to ICP shangri-la if you werent around that time, Juggalos had a fallout cause most their fans were athiest, but the entire time J and Shaggz knew what they were doing and those who acutally have a heart and a conscience can say, hey look at my life what the fuck am I doing... its a turning point.... You have to decide, but really if you keep living in the past, nothing but negative thoughts will come to mind cause thats what humans holdon to most.
I wokeup this morning had a dream I was camping with my family ect... well I wakeup reality hits me I ball like a baby, GAF. i honestly had no clue my mother was gone untill my eyes completely wokeup... if you do not know I acutally did lose my mother before KOD came out which really really did help me in many ways even if its still lingering inside me I know what I have to do....
So basicly I literally have been there side by side with tech this hole time him not even knowing it... Although our storys are different we still have almost the same mental stress/situations to deal with/fears to face.
My point being, when I wokeup I should have focused on what I had in my past positively. instead of what i'm missing... all it did was break me down, and crying really is good sometimes, but as of later dates I hope this doesn't happen the day before mothersday again, its hard. But we're only human remember that.
--And I am NOT smoking dust, infact i'm pretty fucking sober as of right now. get off the highhorse people.