i wish i could sign in here today, but i had 2 Four Loko's and 2 perc's so im not sober... this fuckin sucks... i live in a small town with no car, no job, no phone, no girl, nothin to help keep me satasified. so i was 2 days clean but i keep drinkin, im not really drunk cuz i am typing correctly but i am buzzed and i wish i had a life so not drinking would be easier lol. wow i sound like a fuckin pathetic piece of shit, but thats where i am today and at least i have the balls to say it and not hide from it. i plan on moving soon and starting my life over somewhere else with my pops and his girlfriend, and as soon as i finish my swap or finish my time in jail i will get a job and start my life over again, cuz these last 2 years was hell on earth, praise god i didnt kill anyone in my drunken/pill addicted cycle. im so over this shit, and yet i still cant stop drinking to get my buzz on... i will stop one day tho, probably as soon as i start gettin tested for probation cuz this shit aint worth jail time