Thanks for the post, really good to see some insights from X. At least he is thinking about what is right for him and refusing to be a follower. Organised religion is one of the most convoluted inconsistant ideologys we have.
My girlfriend is a Christian, she always tells me 'things happen for a reason' i absolutely cannot believe that, life is cause and effect, action and re-action, you cant tell me i had to watch my best friend die for a reason, what kind of fucked up shit is that?, when her sister was raped that happened for a reason? no fucking way, life is a series of consequences and how we deal with those, the decisions we choose in the present shape the future.
Although i am sure there has to be a greater creation than man somewhere in the galaxy, we are such a paranoid, tribal, insecure animal, there has to be something better than us, whether that is a God is another matter. Who knows how the fuck we were created? do we need to know or even worry about it?, daily life throws up far more immediate questions and problems. mainly i see the blind acceptance of 'faith and fate' as an excuse not to do for yourself for fear of failing.
Anyways good post, thanks for adding it, got me thinking at least.