That's not very evident by the way you post. What's the diff anyway? All you do now is spend time on here.
I'm not even joking about this... but have you tried taking guitar or piano lessons, or teaching yourself? I'm no expert but if you're hearing music in your head 24/7 when you're not on drugs, you might want to harness that into something positive, rather than suppress it with drugs.
I know that's not a very popular suggestion... But IMO there's a lot of genius being held down by antidepressants etc. these days.