i have felt suicidal a few times, but i am still here. you tellin us to pray if we don't see you on here again was wrong. you are the one who needs to pray homie. God will help if you sincerely ask for his help. you win absolutely nothing by killing yourself, all i can say about it. and like wood said, the grass is always greener on the other side of the fence. i have a wonderful fiancee', but i can only see her 20 days a year at best for the next 2 years, and i feel like shit about that, but there is someone in a worse situation like the one woodie described.
anyone who feels like killing themselves needs the help of God. if they are already a Christian, pray to God for your answers, he won't tell you to kill yourself, bet on that