Scary Premonitions..Ever have any???

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Defy

Defy

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let me begin by saying that I find all of this shit odd as fuck:

I don't have premonitions but I have absurd suicidal thoughts. I don't want to kill myself, in fact it has always been hard to cope with the fact that I will eventually die, but if I'm ever near something that will kill me I'll get flashes of myself dying. I can't stand on the yellow bumpy shit on bart because I think about jumping onto the tracks and being electrocuted by the third rail as the train runs me over. I went to the world trade center when I was hella young and couldn't go near the edge cuz I had the urge to jump off. its hard for me to walk on bridges and overpasses because my body feels like its gonna throw itself over the edge without my control.

I know this ain't the shit that y'all were talking about tho.

but its hella odd tho, that and I came to grip more with dying after I had my son. usually shit is the opposite, someone will not care whether they live or die until they have a kid then their outlook changes. I don't know if its feeling like a part of me still continues even tho I'm gone or just seeing the cycle of life & death first hand.
 
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Defy said:
I don't have premonitions but I have absurd suicidal thoughts. I don't want to kill myself, in fact it has always been hard to cope with the fact that I will eventually die, but if I'm ever near something that will kill me I'll get flashes of myself dying. I can't stand on the yellow bumpy shit on bart because I think about jumping onto the tracks and being electrocuted by the third rail as the train runs me over. I went to the world trade center when I was hella young and couldn't go near the edge cuz I had the urge to jump off. its hard for me to walk on bridges and overpasses because my body feels like its gonna throw itself over the edge without my control.
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you just made my eyes hella water when i read that cause i be feeling the same exact way.i always lay down and wonder whats happens when you die and trip off the fact that i am going to die one day....no way around it......and when i drive and be on a freeway i start tellin my self "i cant just turn the steering wheel right now and kill myself" and i start tellin my self in my head "DO IT...JUST DO IT RIGHT NOW" and i be kinda fighting my inner suicidal thoughts.
 
Defy

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^are you religious? like do you believe in heaven & hell or something similar? cuz at times i feel like there's just nothing after you die, shit just ends. but other times I feel like there's spirits around us as well as other people or things being reincarnated or having the essence of another person.

that shit is a trip tho, its like I feel like I gotta fight myself to stay alive but I know deep down I'm in control of everything I do, even down to my dreams. I taught myself when I was younger that dreams were just that, and if I ever didn't like the dream I was having I would change it right on the spot. never had a nightmare again. but I've been in situations that could kill or maim me and I'm not as afraid as when I see a slow ass freight train going 5 miles per hour cuz I have to fight the temptation to walk in front of it.
 
Robby2Slobby

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I've had the same feelings sorta, but on a different level. Like if I'm high up in a mall or something a though will cross my mind, like if I jump off this ledge right now, I'd totally die.. Heart like skips a beat or some shit, and its just that freaky lightheaded feeling afterward.

But I also am weird about death, thinking that afterwards its just over.. You know, it's like, personally you never know existence without yourself in it, and its crazy that one day it'll just be over. Just trippy to me.
 
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DAMN MAYNE, LAST NIGHT I HAD A DREAM I WAS A PALLBEARER AT A FUNERAL. I WAS CARRYING THE CASKET AND I WOKE UP TO A PHONE CALL THIS MORNING. 2 OF MY FOLKS DIED LAST NIGHT IN A CAR ACCIDENT COMIN FROM VEGAS. RIP TWEEZY MAC AND YOUNG LOW. I LOVE YALL
 
Gas One

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oh, i cant be by any ledge of anything, ill jump. im not sucidical either, but i act on my impulses. if im within jumping space of a ledge, ill do it.

it might be the fact that ive done it in my dreams repeatedly.

i wont jump off anything thats like, 3-4 stories, but if its sky high, ill jump

if i can see a person below in detail or cars, and houses, i find no interest in jumping. if it looks like clouds and sky, i cant be near it.

or water being below, such as bridges, etc

but i have to have a window seat on airplanes. im drawn to it.

maybe because i know i cant jump.
i wouldnt even open the emergency exit.
 
Defy

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that shit is hella odd......I thought I was the only one like that, well me and suicidal ass people who were really trying to kill themselves. I'm pretty much the same way with planes, I like to sit by the window bumping music just staring out the window.....but now that I travel with my son I don't really get to choose my seat anymore :ermm:

RIP to your folks 707
 
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i had a dream one time that was scary as fuck. worst dream ive ever had. but then i woke up and saw that my cock wasnt as small as it was in the dream and everything was better.
 
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i always get this one that some tragedy is gonna happen in my city and ima feed and cloth people, like help them, its weird, and whats even crazier, my friend came to me and said he was tripped out, cause he had a dream that we were camping, cause we go camping alot, and ufos came out of no where and were just mobbin in the sky, some jets went to attack them and got destroyed, somehow he got separated from me, and we met back up a years later, like i looked at least 5 years older he said, and i told him i had an army of 500 with me. i had another friend tell me similar dreams he had. everyone around me looks to me as a leader, and a guy with answers, so i dunno its kinda weird.
 
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thatguy said:
i always get this one that some tragedy is gonna happen in my city and ima feed and cloth people, like help them, its weird, and whats even crazier, my friend came to me and said he was tripped out, cause he had a dream that we were camping, cause we go camping alot, and ufos came out of no where and were just mobbin in the sky, some jets went to attack them and got destroyed, somehow he got separated from me, and we met back up a years later, like i looked at least 5 years older he said, and i told him i had an army of 500 with me. i had another friend tell me similar dreams he had. everyone around me looks to me as a leader, and a guy with answers, so i dunno its kinda weird.
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