Already Dead, hope youre getting through this cool. Dont trip off the pieces of shit ruining this thread and trying to spread negativity every time they post. People like that are the reasons why death may not actually be the worst case scenario. I feel you still got a lot of time though man, just stick with the therapy and you will be able to enjoy everything that much longer.
About Canni Cards. I have one and I have no health problems. It just takes a little bit of work and beating-the-system to get one. If you wish you had one that bad, you should be able to get one no problem - I did. just do some research. p.s. Kif is the ultra-condensed crystals of the bud and you can form it into hash if you know how (pretty easy), same potency for both - just matters if you'd rather have a ball to smoke or some powder to sprinkle. Street price of hash is $25/gram in the bay. Kif is the same.