fill, if you had made it known that you wished to be sacrificed for the greater good until props could return, that would be not only understandable but admirable.
however, after you secretly plotted your own siccness demise, you came into sicc chat and denied any involvement in such a thing; you claimed to have no knowledge or understanding of why you were banned...
you appeared confused, bewildered, and broken... which in turn garnered more sympathy and rage on your behalf from the entire open forum, which increased the apropalypse riots tenfold.
the repercussions of your actions will continue to plague this forum for years to come.