To clarify, this is something that we have talked about over countless hours of chatting on IM and on the phone. She ain't pretending anything and it isn't about "having text" anymore either. My mom met my step dad in a chat room and they have been married for 11 years and love the fuck out each other, so having feelings for someone you have never physically met isn't all that strange to me, and as far as it only being 5 months, I started a family with my ex wife 2 weeks after meeting her. I'm trying to give her breathing room, I honestly am, but we haven't talked in 6 days and I'm down right trippin' and worried about her. I'm to the point of losing sleep. To me, this shit is real as fuck. Call me a Captain Save Em' All Day, but I'm telling you right now, if I really was SuperMan, I'd save this one for sure. I know she loves me because she used to tell me that and I fucked up by hooking up with and sticking my dick in some stupid immature broad up here back in February and I told her about the other girl because I couldn't deal with the guilty conscience it gave me and it crushed her. She called me crying, telling me that I broke her heart and it was at that point that I knew this shit was real. I broke it off with the girl I was seeing up here to pursue the woman I've never met.
Call it crazy, call it whatever. It isn't even about sex, we couldn't have sex if we wanted to. We live 1000 miles apart. She doesn't tell me she loves me anymore because she isn't one to throw it around, and besides, I don't need to hear it anyway. I just know she does. She kisses me, hugs me, puts her head on my chest, eskimoe kisses me, and nuzzles her cheeks on mine on a regular basis. I feel what she is afraid to say. It's my fault she is afraid to say it. I hurt her because she took it all as like we were officially dating and I didn't at that time. I do now tho, from the bottom of my heart.