I fucking hate sleeping, it's a miserable experience of sleep apnea, sleep paralysis, and panic attacks. I've never in my life had a panic attack while I've been awake, but I manage to some how have them every single fucking night while asleep, waking up with my heart beating fast full of anxiety.
My fucked up back and neck are always in the worst pain for the first hour after I wake up also, now matter the type of mattress I sleep on.
I wish I never had to sleep, fuck sleep.