I can already see the precise moment I snap. My 18th birthday, sat in school totally alone surrounded by folks who have no clue it's my birthday or would even give a fuck. In my warped mind I consider my hopelessness with females and my lack of any real chance of getting laid, falling in love, starting a family, or even making friends I can associate with down at the local pub which I drown my sorrows in every night. I see that I'd be out of work for, at a bare minimum, 6 more years of studying to become a lawyer and that I wouldn't realistically be able to afford to study for all that time. I see that my dreams are impossible, and that I'm doomed to a lonely and unfulfilling life. I realize that my entire childhood, which I'll be reminiscing on for the rest of my life, was wasted. I'll have to remember severe bullying, frequent and brutal rejection, followed by forced isolation which would later become impossible to break from due to both intense social anxiety and belonging to a generation of contemptible twats whom I'll never understand. And that's the future forever.
Or at least that's what I'll be thinking......