Its not just the shows themselves. Sure, I been hella excited to see my first live shows, and I always wanted to see Tay and Bo live. But I been looking forward to meeting Killa Tay in person and shaking his hand. He been the only dude to truly show me respect and treat me like family. I been looking forward to hanging out, at the concert afterparty or whatever, and smoking weed and/or drinking and chopping it up. I never hung out with another person before, aside from maybe my brother but we have no real common interests.
I been looking forward to this shit every day and now that it aint happening I feel kinda empty, as pathetic as that sounds. I guess I'm probably the one to blame, I burned my bridge with him when I posted that world tour shit without thinking and it wasn't too clear..