but can you ever really be fulfilled if you havent fulfilled your strongest evolutionary drive, encoded in your genetics for thousands of years
I think that is a fair thought. However, truth is probably closer to if this is encoded in our genetics and is the strongest evolutionary drive we have then why can't everyone procreate- because self is the strongest evolutionary drive.
Truth is I feel more fulfilled by the children that were aborted than birthed. I know this reads as dark twisted logic but we exist in a dark twisted realm. They can't make any of those what ifs ever be or do anything to advance their agenda(s). They will never have to go to a school of assimilation, a life of 9-5s, possible incarcerations, guinea pigs for medical practioners, cannon fodder for their wars.
I don't mourn the dead, only the living.