If this is as far as you have made it (changing your "label" name) after "10years in the (so called) game" it's time to move on already. You seem to have some sort of mental condition. It's time to look yourself in the mirror and go get the mental health help you need. Once you accomplish that, start building a life for yourself. Do you enjoy being poor? Be a man and face yourself and fix your situation. It's people like you, not your imaginary haters that allegedly don't want to see you successful, that not only bring yourselves down but also keep an unnecessary level of trashiness alive in this country. No white people are being held down in this country by anyone but themselves. That pretty much goes for people of all color,. but especially whites. You keep yourself down. There's people on the other side of the world that are forced to live off $2 a day to feed a family of six, living in a cardboard hut above some swamp water, with no electricity and no clean running water, and we have to put up with asses like you who refuse to make something of themselves and instead taint the waters of what is art. You're an asshole.