>Friday evening
>at home alone
>knuckles bleeding, punched a wall and took the skin off
>the loneliness is crippling, nothing will ever change
>will undoubtedly die a virgin
>craving some form of social acceptance or validation from anyone, no matter how miniscule
>top level social isolation, literally impossible to be worse
>has clear mental health problems such as severe anxiety and depression
>often thinks about suicide
>planned hanging in detail on more than one occasion
>finally acknowledges a problem, and after literally years gains the confidence to see a doctor
>"you're normal, you're just like every other kid your age"
>so self-evidently not true, not one single kid at school is so isolated, all outcasts are in social groups
>seeing doctor was pointless, obviously nothing will help as this is clearly reality rather than delusion
>everything is pointless
>literally everything is pointless, death is inevitable
>some people look to trivial hedonistic pleasures to block out the final truth, self-inflicted ineptitude
>if one is unsatisfied, and nothing will get better, why would one continue to be?