then once i hit 180, im going to get a membership to a gym, not like one of those la fitness or 24hour fitness shitty gyms but one of those gyms that's just mats and barbells and bars. try and start myself on a 5x5 program and get strong as fuck. hopefully i can control myself and not end up assaulting someone or something really stupid. that's still pretty far away though... im hoping for a consistent 2lb a week on average. so about 6 months away. hopefully by then i'll have worked myself up to it. but really i havent done shit and i should stfu and fuck off til i hit my goals