i used to smoke every day out of habit. matter fact, every day i went to the club, bought a half 8th or an 8th, some wax or hash, and a edible and that was my daily bread. i went to clubs so much i didnt need my card, some clubs i was kicking it in the back rooms, serving customers at the club like i worked there, drinking lean at the clubs, all the shit.
if you ever went to green door in SD in mission valley or the club on 36th and university in SD you saw me. would be drinking lean in those clubs almost every day. safe to say i was spending a hundo a day if not more sometimes on weed not even other habits i have or had. i had to smoke every day, like serious shit every morning if i had no weed i had to run to the club and even on my broke days get a few grams or the day was gonna be a fucked up day mentally. i thought i was gonna die like that, smoking weed all day every day.
two years ago i FINALLY beat smoking weed every day. i never thought id do it, but i did it. i dont even smoke every week any more. the high i get from smoking now when i do is way better. i love the fact that every day im sober enough to think clearly and make decisions without a cloudy mind. i dont think ill ever go back to smoking every day, even if i have pounds in the pad. and to be honest, i can finally sell weed how ive always wanted to, without getting high on my own shit. which means when i do sell it, its all profit and not on some 'heres my sack, and heres the profit"
ima still always be pro-marijuana, be around marijuana, and love the shit but ive finally been able to seperate my daily life from weed smoking. shit feels great. smoked a blunt with the homie from siccness yesterday but neither one of us are daily potheads anymore. maybe this is what comes with getting older.
ive gained habits and broke habits as time passed. but shit, not smoking every day has changed me for the better. i like it like this honestly. never thought id say it.
in between that 2 years of trying to get it right though, all i smoked was wax. i quit weed and just smoked hella wax, tolerence got crazy. i guess cutting weed out and just smoking some yellow wax looking shit every day helped me kick it. it honestly didnt even seem like the same drug anymore. weed wasnt even getting me high. stopping wax smoking was easier cuz it was new to me, then bow. was done with both.
im happy like this though. if i can help it will never go back to smoking weed or hash/wax every day again thats in the past. certain things it helps with, like my art..hosting a radio show. but i had to get back to ME. me as a person. what im worth without the pot. who i was before marijuana. i was smoking since 17 every day. safe to say its a big change.