@SouthernComfort
...breh, if I can be blunt & brutally honest;
you are too damn young for this shit to be happening to you.
i know life has its ups & downs & I am not your judge, but this is fixable.
anything myself or your freedom town brethren can do to help, i know i would do, & I am sure your comrades here would too.
my advice is focus.
focus on your health, possibly a lifestyle change, steer clear of the drank if thats what u need & get back to the point where you were before anything held you down.
i definitely wish you the best breh & ill be in portland in a few months ( actually in dundee, but ill be in portland as well ) & i wanna come see how you are doing then in person.
BEST luck & hollar if you need anything to help.