Its hard to lose some one homie. it takes a long time for the hurt to goaway an even after its gone you feel gulty for not fealing hurt man. My familia still trips when i talk about my dead cousin an homie, they dont like to hear there names because of the pain they still got from these people dieing. Yoll never forget your homie vato, i know cuz every day i wake up i can still see my cousin in my head. alot of the time i wounder what it would be like if he was still alive today. well anyways RIP to yor carnal and take it easy.