This has been a fucked up year....

[mustynutz]

man i getting sick of making these damn threads

First my homeboy Omari is shot and killed in Lakeview over some bullshit....then Mac Dre is killed a few days later....then i get a call last night from a dude i grew up wit and am hella close wit thats like my brother...i mean his mom took care of me when i was like 14-15 and on the streets fuckin up, she treated me like another son.....He tells me she drowned in a river in Texas and wasnt found for 24 hours....it was a hella bad storm and they have been having hurricane/tornado watches...she tried to save some animal or something and got swept up in a undertow or wave or something and that was it....

This woman raised me like her own son, fed me, gave me a place to live when my dad was cracked out...she was like the mother i never had a chance to have, since my real mother was beat to death in 1988 by her husband ( he didnt serve a day of time, wasnt even arrested...he told the police she was drunk and fell and hit her head on the table, M.E. says it was homicide, autopsy says homicide, case closed due to lack of evidence..keep in mind this was YEARS before OJ and the domestic violence crackdown in California)

It s a damn shame that i've had my "mom" die twice...all these people dyin around me is fuckin wit my head....Am I next ? Shit is crazy.
But she died tryin to save someone else....so I know shes in Heaven, i have no doubt....shes in a better place.

My brother in AZ is goin through in man....she was all he had, i just hope hes able to stay strong.
the fucked up thing about is is my sister ran away from home like 7 years ago and turned into a prostitute and dopefiend in the TL, i aint seen her like in 5 years...no one knows where she is...dead or alive, all mom wanted to do was find her and get her off the streets again....that was like her only wish....and its fucked up cause im not even able to tell her that her moms dead...hell i dont even know if she's alive...

yeah i done had a fucked up life if you cant tell...but hey....we all dont get the right cards when theyre dealt out...some are born wit a silver spoon, and some just survive eatin top ramen ya feel me. ZBut we all got 1 life to live...and thats it...no rewind , no fast forward...and no pause..you see it once and thats it, and nothin in this life is gauranteed except death and taxes....

ya'll be safe out there man...

REST IN PARADISE

Christine Hernandez
February 14th, 196? - November 16th, 2004

In Loving Memory



RIP to your loved ones and mine..........

 

[Dana Dane]

2005 has GOT to be a better year. This year, my dads friends son was drunk-driving and killed himself and his 4 best friends, my fiances uncle drowned in the Sac River, We had to put our cat to sleep after 13 years (which was a huge blow to the whole family), not to mention Mac Dre, Maq from Remaq Productions was killed the night before last in a hit and run, I mean, does it ever end?? I know I am forgettin a few others that we lost, too....too much pot......RIP to all the loved ones we have all lost, and lets all pray that we learn something from these deaths.

Musty...dog, you must be one of the strongest people ever, to have dealt with all you have been given, and keep moving forward. You seem to have a pretty positive attitude, and I will pray for you and hope that you have a great life. Damn, you deserve it!!!

 

[jesse james]

I lost a partner of mine this past weekend too...........

 

[mustynutz]

damn i didnt know about Maq.....damn, sorry to hear that dana...i really appreciate the prayers, if it wasnt for prayers from others shit i dont think i'd be alive today to tell you the truth, so that mean a lot girl...thanks
Jesse sorry to hear about ya folks man....im prayin that 2005 is gonna be a better year for all of us, fa real...

ya'll go call them loved ones you aint talked to in a minute and always put off calling...really, i aint bullshitting....i want everyone from here to go call some family member or friend they aint talked to in a while..take a minute of ya life to take time out...dont make excuses, just do it....stop whatever you doin and just pick up the fuckin phone....cause right now you ARE able to make that call, there gonna come a time when your not going to be able, that day might be tomorrow.

 

[Mean Mugg]

2005 has GOT to be a better year. This year, my dads friends son was drunk-driving and killed himself and his 4 best friends, my fiances uncle drowned in the Sac River, We had to put our cat to sleep after 13 years (which was a huge blow to the whole family), not to mention Mac Dre, Maq from Remaq Productions was killed the night before last in a hit and run, I mean, does it ever end?? I know I am forgettin a few others that we lost, too....too much pot......RIP to all the loved ones we have all lost, and lets all pray that we learn something from these deaths.

Musty...dog, you must be one of the strongest people ever, to have dealt with all you have been given, and keep moving forward. You seem to have a pretty positive attitude, and I will pray for you and hope that you have a great life. Damn, you deserve it!!!

I second that!!! Musty is a strong kat no doubt, stay up homie.

 

[DVS ONE]

sorry to hear this bad news Musty youve been through SOME SHIT....all thats no joke affects you your whole life....I've been through similar....its fucked up, shits HARD to cope but you cant give up homie....stay up and stay strong....

 

[Gringo Starr]

Well,lets all hope that 2005 goes better...i wouldnt say it was a BAD year for me this year...but it wasnt all that fantastic either...i gotta job where i MAKE less then my last one(first time EVER since i started workin at 15)...im in debt $10,000...weed just aint good anough anymore...mufuckas want percs and OC's...i got no family left in this state(thats actually a good thing,my bad)....im goin bald...im gettin "fatter"...women just arent the same as they were when i was 21...im closin in on 27 years of age and STILL dont know what it is im here on earth for...


BUt remember this...it could be worse.You could be blind,homeless,have no legs,dyin of AIDS...the list goes on...anytime youre feelin down and out...remember,theres always someone worse off then you and that you should count youre bleesings that youre healthy,alive...and everything else thats good in your life...never focus on the negative...

Stay up musty...

 

[Mean Mugg]

BUt remember this...it could be worse.You could be blind,homeless,have no legs,dyin of AIDS...the list goes on...anytime youre feelin down and out...remember,theres always someone worse off then you and that you should count youre bleesings that youre healthy,alive...and everything else thats good in your life...never focus on the negative...

Stay up musty...

That's real talk

 

[DubbC415]

This year had it's tragedies, but for me, I look at it like it could have happened anytime....I think what hurts the most is just knowing that my dad passed at a crucial time for me, however....I've had some of the best memories of my life, such as almost not graduating, and finally being able to walk with the rest of my class, and getting that diploma...all the good memories with my girl, with my boys...saying fuck you to my boss and walking out...catching 2 home runs at an A's game in one game....just things like that. A lot of shit sucks, but I've learned to value my life by both the good and bad times together.

 

[mustynutz]

yeah man...i look at life a lot differently lately.....its time to start livng.

 

[Gringo Starr]

This year had it's tragedies, but for me, I look at it like it could have happened anytime....I think what hurts the most is just knowing that my dad passed at a crucial time for me, however....I've had some of the best memories of my life, such as almost not graduating, and finally being able to walk with the rest of my class, and getting that diploma...all the good memories with my girl, with my boys...saying fuck you to my boss and walking out...catching 2 home runs at an A's game in one game....just things like that. A lot of shit sucks, but I've learned to value my life by both the good and bad times together.

Especially you bein a youngsta too...its good to see that at your age you recognise that...wish i thought like that at 18....took me 6 years after that to realize what i could do for my life to improve it and not be mad at the world for MY fuck ups....

.....its time to start livng.

Muthafuckin right sahab...fuck livin to die...

And if anything...keep livin for the ones that dont have the privaledge of livin anymore....

 

[DJ Mark 7]

Dubb -


Months ago when u posted about your pops passin, I felt SO fuckin bad for u homie....But u truly are a strong person man....You've managed to still succeed in life and follow your dreams even after a devastating event like that....I can't imagine life without my father and I'm sure you felt the same way....But you still doin it....Congrats homie

 

[DubbC415]

^^^Thanks a lot, i really appreciate it. On the real though, I thought i would grieve a lot longer, but it just doesnt hit me as hard as it used to, only because the fact i miss him takes over the sadness. It's just like losing something you can't get anywhere else, like a best friend i'll never have back. So, what i'm saying is, im not as sad or angry as i used to be, but i just miss him, and theres nothing u can do about it. And, as much as i hate this saying, life does go on. I have to be there for my mom, I mean, what really saddens me is how hurt she must be...it was going to be 20 years for them...and then i got my brothers, and the what they been through and all, the fact one of em almost died from cancer, and everything. Shit has to go on, and i realized, not trying to sound bigheaded or anything, but my family counts on me. Like, really, I read something at his memorial service, and i dont think i've had so many adults at one time pay their respects to me, and im thankful for that. i've managed to surprise myself in that aspect.

All in all, my point is, is that my life can't stop here. I can't beat myself up over it, because I'll never make it. I have to be there for everyone else, I have to be the pillar for other people, and moreover, for myself. Reading of all this, what other people have gone through, is sad as hell, and how many times do we wish that things were different...i dont know. But, i still have my health, and the chance to do what i want, and help my family out, and I am thankful for that every day.

 

[mustynutz]

AINT YA'LL GOT SOME PHONECALLS TO MAKE.......

 

[Dana Dane]

Just got off the phone tellin my mom and dad how much i love em......Its a trip, the last time I posted that ya'll should call and let people know you love them, I got word 10 minutes later that Dre was gone.

Dubb- I told you this already, but its worth repeating....I have MAD respect for you and how you have handled yourself and maintained your sense of humor since your father passed. If it was me, I couldn't have the positive attitude you do, I would be locked up somewhere right now. You figured out young what a lot of grown ass folks still fail to realize!! Best of luck to you in the future, and you will ALWAYS have a friend in Vallejo!!!!

 

[hernandez1977]

yeah this is a fucked up year. im from kansas city and my little 17 year old cousin was shot and killed on i-435. one shot to the head. he didnt even graduate yet. lifes a bitch then you die

r.i.p.
mac dre
dominic "dime" hernandez

 

[MeloTrauma]

The greatest irony is that the only sure thing in life, is death.

At what point in his existience does a man stop living, and actually start dying?

It is only natural for all that is organic to eventually wither away, how soon or how late is the question.