ok listen up. i had a spritual awakening. i was mad at myself cuz i'm not like the gangbangers with all the money. i dont have a car, i dont have a girl, and i am not the most loved. but something hit me last night. i dont care that i'm not the best. i dont care that i will never be rich and famous. i have to be thankful for my gifts that god has given me. some say that god doesnt exist but they are so wrong. i have found jesus but i really never lost him. i was the one who was lost. but i am living great. i told myself that i wont swear anymore, i wont hate no one for any reason. and i am really trying hard to stay away from the eye candy forum, lol. i am sorry for all the pain and confusion i have cause anyone in my whole life, and i just want peace in my life. everything is so much clearer. i have a smile on my face for no reason. i am just happy that i am alive and healthy (except for a basic cold) i just wish that everyone could feel the joy i feel. but that will never happen. like i said in a previous statement, you may say that i am going soft but i am strong in gods eyes. peace out my brothers and sisters. WE ALL BLEED RED! i hope you all live long greatful lives.