i can understand where yall comin from. try to hear me out. when i was younger, whenever someone wanted me to go to church, i felt like they were harrassing me and stuff, i didn't want to hear it at all. i mean, i always prayed, everynight. and i went to church sometimes, so what was so wrong. well, when i was in boot camp, the shit is way stressful, so church is really the only time you have to unwind. that's when i started getting closer to God. i made a prayer one night, and asked the Lord to take my heart, and guide me, i said" i completely surrender myself to you Lord, use me how you feel necessary." i always did bad shit growin up, but not that bad, i mean, well i never got caught. but ene-ways, things changed almost immediately afterwards for me. i never had a good relationship with a girl, i mean i fooled around with many, many of em, but never had one i cared about. i met my fiance' a month later. she had gone her whole life cause her grandfather is the pastor of her church. she always wanted me to go. finally i did, but just cause she wanted me to. but i started listening, really listening. the Lord was talking to me through the message, he really was. one night, the preacher stopped in the middle of his sermon and said " i can't go on right now, the Lord is speaking to all of us in our hearts, listen to him right now, not to me." and we all started singing praises to him, i went up to the alter and just prayed. i could feel a heat all over my body, like the Lord took over. i was praying for forgiveness and could literally feel the sin leaving my body. that's what it felt like. i didn't know, but that is what being "saved" is. i was saved. i am now a born again christian. the thing is, my roots are deep with evil. if i see a scrap i wanna mash on em right there. when i hear woodie's stuff it amplifies that. i honestly have to pray sometimes to give me the strength to not listen to woodie because of how amped it gets me, it's like a drug. woodie is the dopest ever, so it has been hard since i love this music so much. what i am trying to say is this: i am a born again christian. i have made strides in my life and changes that i never thought were possible. i used to be afraid of dying, i am no longer afraid of basically anything. it says in the bible" Jesus answered and said unto him, verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God." what it means is, if you are not saved, you will not get into heaven. you cannot save someone, the Lord has to do that. you have to accept the Lord in your heart and be willing to do that. the reason people come at you like they do is this: they want you to experiance what they have. the Lord has blessed me so much, i could never repay him, and it keeps getting better. don't think you have done too much. there are people in my church with prison tats, tatted tears, and they are the strongest in their faith with the Lord cause they have seen a larger change than alot of people. i don't expect anyone to change, i am just trying to help some of yall understand. thanks homeboys and girls, stay up.
