Dark Days....
Now as the days get dark, my life just gets a little colder/ I always thought it would get better but it gets worse as I get older/ To many twists and turns in my life homie it barley goes straight/ Sometimes I want to go to sleep and not wake up the next day/ 'Cuz I'm tired of this shit and my mind gets overwhelmed/ It's like I want to go to heaven, sometimes I want to just burn in hell/ But we're already in hell cuz homie life is a bitch/ The way I see it ain't no one happy, we all live in shit/ Everyday it's a struggle and I get tired of it all/ I want to make it to the top, but everybody rather see me fall/ So I say "fuck all you bitches and stay the fuck up out my way"/ There's a maniac on the loose and a psycho's here to stay/ Young Redrum 781 murder 187/ Now when it's my time to go, does this "G" get to go to heaven/ Now I know my life ain't perfect, I might've commited some sins/ But will the man up above or down below take me in....
Nigga fuck my life, I said I hate my life
Nigga fuck my life, I said I hate my life
Nigga fuck my life, I said I hate my life
The dark days are here, I said I hate my fucken life
(2 times)
Before I go to sleep at night I think the weirdest thoughts of things/ And the things I think before I sleep, wind up in all my dreams/ Like decapitating bitches and disecting little suckas/ but what could I say, it brings me joy, I'm a twisted motherfucka/ Death for all Right Right just like that Clockwork Orange Agent/ Alex was his name and his men weren't any different/ And I'm pretty much the same, the thoughts I think to you are wicked/ But I can't stop thinking what I think, it ain't my fault it's twisted/ My thoughts are dark my mind is bright and people don't understand me/ That's why I keep shit to myself and I dont tell just anybody/ 'Cuz if you tell just anybody then they look like you're crazy/ So how could you trust somebody when everybody thinks you're crazy/ So you take it all in and keep it all to yourself/ And then insanity takes over and it fucks up your health/ But I don't speak off what I hear blood I speak off experience/ Why these thoughts run in my head I don't know I'm just delirious....
Chorus (2 times)
Now since I'm a little crazy I ain't gon' let that shit stop me/ If you want me dead and gone well then nigga you got to pop me/ But don't guarantee me gone 'cuz Imma come back and haunt you/ I'm a demon in disguise, in your nightmares right beside you/ The soul taker, grim reaper, I'm a motherfucken heathen/ With sick intensions in my head, I'm a motherfucken demon/ Now you think my thoughts are weird but I really think they're normal/ I think they're hella koo blood and you just think they're horrible/ I wish death upon you suckas when you try to fuck me over/ whether I'm drunk or high or homie even fucken sober/ It don't matter the situation these thoughts are floating all around me/ Sick intensions in my brain and they're always gonna find me/ I don't try to keep them out, these thoughts are here for a reason/ I get this visual in my head, then I get this illusion/ And I like the way I think the things I see and how I feel/ To me they're kinda funny hella twisted but it's real....
Chorus (2 times)
"Sure I Want To Die"
I'm sitting up in my room and I'm feeling hella lost/
I'm slowly rocking in my chair and thinking with the lights off/ Depression's all up in my mind and it's kicking my ass/ There's broken glass up in my hand I'm hella trippin' off the past/ I'm thinking I don't want to live, tonight I want to just die/ I hold that glass up to my wrist I'm thinkin "yeah it's worth a try"/ These voices all up in my head tell me hit the main vein/ The dragon's all up in my mind telling me he's gonna block the pain/ But I ain't trippin' off the pain, I wouldn't mind if I suffer/ I gave my wrist a little slit, it's bleeding like a motherfucker/ I'm stare'n all up at the wound watching the blood start to drip/ I place the glass in my other hand and slit my other fucken wrist/ Now my adrenaline is pumpin' and my heart starts to race/ My body's starting to go numb, inhale and out with a steady pace/ I slit my wrists' a few more times before my power was drained/ There's so much blood up on the floor I think I hit the main vein
I'm pretty sure I want to die or is it just my imagination/
I'm always thinkin' suicide plus my demons down there waitin'/ I'm stare'n all up at my wrists' I might just give it a shot/ I'm diggin' deep into my flesh and there ain't no second thought/ By now I'm feelin' hella sick and now I'm starting to wonder/ Am I really gonna die? and will the devil take me under?/ It's like I seen this all before but what the fuck does it mean/ I'm always dieing the same way everytime up in my dreams
Now my blood is rushing out as if I just sprung a leak/ There's no more strength up in my body, I'm feelin' hella fucken weak/ My head is feeling hella light I think I better lie down/ I tried to lie up on my bed I fell right to the fucken ground/ By now my eyes have start to shut and now they're slowly rolling back/ I've looked for death times before but now I'm on the right track/ And that exact point in time I saw nothing but black/ These voices still up in my head 'cuz I could tell by the way they laugh/ A needle was punctured in my arm, I felt it break thru the skin/ I opened my eyes to flashing lights and sirens from an ambulance/ I got this ivy in my arm and these tubes in my nose/ I'm feeling hella pissed inside 'cuz it was my turn to go/ So now they're doing everything they can to keep me alive/ And I'm fighting from the inside out to let go and die/ The doctor's squeezing on my wrists' and doing exactly what it seems/ I'm praying they won't stop the bleeding and my wrists' will fucken bleed
Chorus
Now I'm laying in the hospital they finally stopped the bleeding/ Ain't that just my fucken luck, they're making me continue breathing/ I got both my wrists' wrapped and my situation's critical/ And if I die today to me (yo) that would be a miracle/ But then I finally blink and now I'm back in my room/ I pray that if I slit my wrist I'm hoping that I'll die soon/ 'Cuz I don't want to be half-dead laying on a gourney naked/ Hella people all around me thinking that I'm gonna make it/ I wanna go out by myself 'cuz I know I'm gonna suffer/ I won't scream like a bitch but tear it like a motherfucker/ And everytime I cut my wrist I'll probably dwell on the past/ My memories running through my head the good is mixed with the bad/ Now do I want to cut myself to death? there's always a maybe/ Someone might find me right before I'm dead and have somebody save me/ I'm thinking I don't want to live tonight I want to just die/ I hold that glass up to my wrist I'm thinging "yeah it's worth a try"
Chorus (2 times)
If anyone has a request on lyrics they want from my album "Voices In My Head," post your request.
Redrum 781
Now as the days get dark, my life just gets a little colder/ I always thought it would get better but it gets worse as I get older/ To many twists and turns in my life homie it barley goes straight/ Sometimes I want to go to sleep and not wake up the next day/ 'Cuz I'm tired of this shit and my mind gets overwhelmed/ It's like I want to go to heaven, sometimes I want to just burn in hell/ But we're already in hell cuz homie life is a bitch/ The way I see it ain't no one happy, we all live in shit/ Everyday it's a struggle and I get tired of it all/ I want to make it to the top, but everybody rather see me fall/ So I say "fuck all you bitches and stay the fuck up out my way"/ There's a maniac on the loose and a psycho's here to stay/ Young Redrum 781 murder 187/ Now when it's my time to go, does this "G" get to go to heaven/ Now I know my life ain't perfect, I might've commited some sins/ But will the man up above or down below take me in....
Nigga fuck my life, I said I hate my life
Nigga fuck my life, I said I hate my life
Nigga fuck my life, I said I hate my life
The dark days are here, I said I hate my fucken life
(2 times)
Before I go to sleep at night I think the weirdest thoughts of things/ And the things I think before I sleep, wind up in all my dreams/ Like decapitating bitches and disecting little suckas/ but what could I say, it brings me joy, I'm a twisted motherfucka/ Death for all Right Right just like that Clockwork Orange Agent/ Alex was his name and his men weren't any different/ And I'm pretty much the same, the thoughts I think to you are wicked/ But I can't stop thinking what I think, it ain't my fault it's twisted/ My thoughts are dark my mind is bright and people don't understand me/ That's why I keep shit to myself and I dont tell just anybody/ 'Cuz if you tell just anybody then they look like you're crazy/ So how could you trust somebody when everybody thinks you're crazy/ So you take it all in and keep it all to yourself/ And then insanity takes over and it fucks up your health/ But I don't speak off what I hear blood I speak off experience/ Why these thoughts run in my head I don't know I'm just delirious....
Chorus (2 times)
Now since I'm a little crazy I ain't gon' let that shit stop me/ If you want me dead and gone well then nigga you got to pop me/ But don't guarantee me gone 'cuz Imma come back and haunt you/ I'm a demon in disguise, in your nightmares right beside you/ The soul taker, grim reaper, I'm a motherfucken heathen/ With sick intensions in my head, I'm a motherfucken demon/ Now you think my thoughts are weird but I really think they're normal/ I think they're hella koo blood and you just think they're horrible/ I wish death upon you suckas when you try to fuck me over/ whether I'm drunk or high or homie even fucken sober/ It don't matter the situation these thoughts are floating all around me/ Sick intensions in my brain and they're always gonna find me/ I don't try to keep them out, these thoughts are here for a reason/ I get this visual in my head, then I get this illusion/ And I like the way I think the things I see and how I feel/ To me they're kinda funny hella twisted but it's real....
Chorus (2 times)
"Sure I Want To Die"
I'm sitting up in my room and I'm feeling hella lost/
I'm slowly rocking in my chair and thinking with the lights off/ Depression's all up in my mind and it's kicking my ass/ There's broken glass up in my hand I'm hella trippin' off the past/ I'm thinking I don't want to live, tonight I want to just die/ I hold that glass up to my wrist I'm thinkin "yeah it's worth a try"/ These voices all up in my head tell me hit the main vein/ The dragon's all up in my mind telling me he's gonna block the pain/ But I ain't trippin' off the pain, I wouldn't mind if I suffer/ I gave my wrist a little slit, it's bleeding like a motherfucker/ I'm stare'n all up at the wound watching the blood start to drip/ I place the glass in my other hand and slit my other fucken wrist/ Now my adrenaline is pumpin' and my heart starts to race/ My body's starting to go numb, inhale and out with a steady pace/ I slit my wrists' a few more times before my power was drained/ There's so much blood up on the floor I think I hit the main vein
I'm pretty sure I want to die or is it just my imagination/
I'm always thinkin' suicide plus my demons down there waitin'/ I'm stare'n all up at my wrists' I might just give it a shot/ I'm diggin' deep into my flesh and there ain't no second thought/ By now I'm feelin' hella sick and now I'm starting to wonder/ Am I really gonna die? and will the devil take me under?/ It's like I seen this all before but what the fuck does it mean/ I'm always dieing the same way everytime up in my dreams
Now my blood is rushing out as if I just sprung a leak/ There's no more strength up in my body, I'm feelin' hella fucken weak/ My head is feeling hella light I think I better lie down/ I tried to lie up on my bed I fell right to the fucken ground/ By now my eyes have start to shut and now they're slowly rolling back/ I've looked for death times before but now I'm on the right track/ And that exact point in time I saw nothing but black/ These voices still up in my head 'cuz I could tell by the way they laugh/ A needle was punctured in my arm, I felt it break thru the skin/ I opened my eyes to flashing lights and sirens from an ambulance/ I got this ivy in my arm and these tubes in my nose/ I'm feeling hella pissed inside 'cuz it was my turn to go/ So now they're doing everything they can to keep me alive/ And I'm fighting from the inside out to let go and die/ The doctor's squeezing on my wrists' and doing exactly what it seems/ I'm praying they won't stop the bleeding and my wrists' will fucken bleed
Chorus
Now I'm laying in the hospital they finally stopped the bleeding/ Ain't that just my fucken luck, they're making me continue breathing/ I got both my wrists' wrapped and my situation's critical/ And if I die today to me (yo) that would be a miracle/ But then I finally blink and now I'm back in my room/ I pray that if I slit my wrist I'm hoping that I'll die soon/ 'Cuz I don't want to be half-dead laying on a gourney naked/ Hella people all around me thinking that I'm gonna make it/ I wanna go out by myself 'cuz I know I'm gonna suffer/ I won't scream like a bitch but tear it like a motherfucker/ And everytime I cut my wrist I'll probably dwell on the past/ My memories running through my head the good is mixed with the bad/ Now do I want to cut myself to death? there's always a maybe/ Someone might find me right before I'm dead and have somebody save me/ I'm thinking I don't want to live tonight I want to just die/ I hold that glass up to my wrist I'm thinging "yeah it's worth a try"
Chorus (2 times)
If anyone has a request on lyrics they want from my album "Voices In My Head," post your request.
Redrum 781
