I was livin life in the fast lane now all I'm seein is traffic
Looked in the rearview at the past and the scene was graphic
Cuz I was wreakin havoc on lives other than mine
I was deaf dumb and blind livin my life on the line
When things were goin fine I always turned it around
Drownin my sorrows in the bottle everytime I was down
Always lost never found and I kept makin it worse
Somehow I always escaped and kept evading the hearse
I'd always say it was a curse and that my life was doomed
Just feeling sorry for myself and that's why I assumed
That I could turn around and run everytime I was scared
A child in a mans body that was never prepaired
And as I sat and I stared in this mirror at these visions
I saw a good person that just made bad decisions
And I can't stand this position because I've stood here before
On a mission always wishin but my dreams were ignored
Puttin my faith in the lord was not an option to me
Because I'd have to use the brakes so I could stop to see
where I ought to be instead I continued to blame
Expecting better results but kept doin the same
I kept pursuing change but alcohol was blockin the road
Holding in all my frustration made me want to explode
Another episode... of stupid drunken behavior
I hurt the ones I love and said I'll deal with it later
I kept numbing my mind but tried to uderstand
why the hell nothing's workin out the way that I planned
But now I'm takin a stand and droppin the bottle
Slowin my roll and takin my foot off the throttle
Just like Aristotle takin the time to think
During my flood of emotions either I swim or I sink
No longer livin on the brink cuz when you feel death's near you
Take a look at your life by lookin into the rear view
Then you'll get a clear view of how you don't wanna be
Because I know that I tried but still fucked up constantly
Irresponsibaly is how I live my life and I regret
Not dealing with the issues drinkin helped me forget
But God ain't done with me yet that's why I'm still livin
Left to straiten out this path the last chance I'll be given
That's why I'm driven..to succeed on this mission
So I'll never again be placed in this position
