I was put in a foster home at the age of 10 left all alone never will see my dad again It seems to me that My life was all in vain cuz from day 1 all I could feel was pain Why did god have to give me this fate To curse me and to fail will my life end up like my dad my dad only to die in jail?
My mom was a crack head.. stil is till this day. I am only 17 But I have to find a way.. I have been doing it without her or my fucking dad... he was a crackhead to I know its fucking sad.. seems like the love was never in my house living to smoke crack.. now whats that all about..
The crack over powered my fam my sister start selling it to my mom and giveing me the money she made from it. my brother started selling when I was like 12 and he was 16 someone tryed to jack him and he stabbed the person who tryed it. he almost went to jail for it. I never really sold drugs Just some weed here and there and some E from time to time but never really enough to get into it. Endless lies come from my mom saying she would quit ..but My sister selling to her didnt help at all.. My brother and sister join up in the blood gang.. p3 is where my sister is from and I dont know which my brother join i never even asked him.. I hate fucking gangs becuase I say .. why do you need 40 people to back you up? if you can't handle things on your own then you are a bitch. So fuck blood fuck crip . my brother and sister both from blood .. but they still fought each Other.. When I got out of the foster home.. Nothing had changed at all... My mom almost OD when I went into the foster home.. and My brother blamed me for it.. as a matter of fact .. they said that .. After I was born ... my mom and dad started smokeing... and they said me being born made them start... wtf is that shit? what could I do? I wish I was never born.. and from what it seems I am not the only one who wishes that.
They had a perfect family befor I was born.. So I am the one who fucked shit up....... this is what I brother told me... and I dont know what to say to that. NOW everone tells me I am the one who will save the family I am the one who will get rich and pull everyone from the gutter.. but I'm not I cant even help my self let alone everyone in my family...I am thinking about geting into jacking people for there shit till I get killed... My life is nothing anyway.. and god is mocking me.. he has to be there is no reason for someone to have been in soo much shit ..My brother almost shot me becuase I was wearing all blue oneday... he pointed at me and shot.. and was like WHATS UP BLOOD? .. I was like ??? and he shot again.. he missed 2 times and got mad and we start to fight beucase he was shooting at me so I had to try to stop him. He was hella drunk.. he hasn't said to much to me since and it has been 2 years.. he said he was sorry many times but.. he tryed to kill me....
I dont know why i'm writeing this .. but I have to.. I have to get it off my chest I don't want to think about this shit anymore
My best homie was Killed last summer by some Mexicans trying to rape his girl... they stabbed him 12 times and they raped and stabbed his bitch and almost killed her too. damn mexicans will do anything for some pussy..Oh well they got what was comming to them. My homie Shot this one asians mom in the face becuase she was yelling at him .... I don't know how niggas could do such shit.
Earth is a cold and dead place.. and anyone on it is going to hell.. I think this is ture becuase all you see is hate. Hate Death and nothing else.. if you fall in love it will be tooken from you.. if you start to enjoy your self.. Somthing bad will happen.. If you try to relax Drama will come out of no where.. I cant hide from the Hell fire of this world.. and I just want it to end.. why wont it end god. this is whatt you call Earth? why live for you, when you dont even give us a chance to live? How can I Enjoy life.. what is there to enjoy? WHy did you put us here when there is nothing for us........ Everyone is going to hell. No matter what! If the bible is ture we all are going to GO TO FUCKING HELL.. So why dont I just end it now and go there now?? I dont know I am afraid of death.. and I am afraid of life..Heaven is not even a turning stone... What ever comes and what ever goes...... it is what it is.. and I can't change it.. Maybe oneday my mom dad brother sister will all go to heaven. I hope that they all can go to enternal bliss.... IF they do My life wont be in vain.. I would love to see them all happy again together.. but I know ...and god knows it wont happen... I would give my life and soul for this to happen.
I am just writeing this beucase I cant sleep..and i know there are going to be a bunch of Niggas that write back and talk crap to me..But I ain't tripin.Do what you do.
I am not complaining I am just Venting.......lets end this is a quote..... That nigga Tupac said it all.....
I smoke a blunt to take the pain out And if I wasn't high, I'd probably try to blow my brains out I'm hopeless, they shoulda killed me as a baby And now they got me trapped in the storm, I'm goin crazy Forgive me------Tupac
My homeboy's doin life, his baby momma be stressin Sheddin tears when her son, finally ask that questions Where my daddy at? Mama why we live so poor? Why you cryin? Heard you late night through my bedroom door Now do you love me mama? Whitey keep on callin me nigga? Get my weight up with my hate and pay 'em back when I'm bigger------Tupac
Stuck in a whirlpool gettin' drug down, We was four deep but I'm the only one now, How long will I last before I fall off? Runnin', for my life, in the land of the lost -----X-raided
My mom was a crack head.. stil is till this day. I am only 17 But I have to find a way.. I have been doing it without her or my fucking dad... he was a crackhead to I know its fucking sad.. seems like the love was never in my house living to smoke crack.. now whats that all about..
The crack over powered my fam my sister start selling it to my mom and giveing me the money she made from it. my brother started selling when I was like 12 and he was 16 someone tryed to jack him and he stabbed the person who tryed it. he almost went to jail for it. I never really sold drugs Just some weed here and there and some E from time to time but never really enough to get into it. Endless lies come from my mom saying she would quit ..but My sister selling to her didnt help at all.. My brother and sister join up in the blood gang.. p3 is where my sister is from and I dont know which my brother join i never even asked him.. I hate fucking gangs becuase I say .. why do you need 40 people to back you up? if you can't handle things on your own then you are a bitch. So fuck blood fuck crip . my brother and sister both from blood .. but they still fought each Other.. When I got out of the foster home.. Nothing had changed at all... My mom almost OD when I went into the foster home.. and My brother blamed me for it.. as a matter of fact .. they said that .. After I was born ... my mom and dad started smokeing... and they said me being born made them start... wtf is that shit? what could I do? I wish I was never born.. and from what it seems I am not the only one who wishes that.
They had a perfect family befor I was born.. So I am the one who fucked shit up....... this is what I brother told me... and I dont know what to say to that. NOW everone tells me I am the one who will save the family I am the one who will get rich and pull everyone from the gutter.. but I'm not I cant even help my self let alone everyone in my family...I am thinking about geting into jacking people for there shit till I get killed... My life is nothing anyway.. and god is mocking me.. he has to be there is no reason for someone to have been in soo much shit ..My brother almost shot me becuase I was wearing all blue oneday... he pointed at me and shot.. and was like WHATS UP BLOOD? .. I was like ??? and he shot again.. he missed 2 times and got mad and we start to fight beucase he was shooting at me so I had to try to stop him. He was hella drunk.. he hasn't said to much to me since and it has been 2 years.. he said he was sorry many times but.. he tryed to kill me....
I dont know why i'm writeing this .. but I have to.. I have to get it off my chest I don't want to think about this shit anymore
My best homie was Killed last summer by some Mexicans trying to rape his girl... they stabbed him 12 times and they raped and stabbed his bitch and almost killed her too. damn mexicans will do anything for some pussy..Oh well they got what was comming to them. My homie Shot this one asians mom in the face becuase she was yelling at him .... I don't know how niggas could do such shit.
Earth is a cold and dead place.. and anyone on it is going to hell.. I think this is ture becuase all you see is hate. Hate Death and nothing else.. if you fall in love it will be tooken from you.. if you start to enjoy your self.. Somthing bad will happen.. If you try to relax Drama will come out of no where.. I cant hide from the Hell fire of this world.. and I just want it to end.. why wont it end god. this is whatt you call Earth? why live for you, when you dont even give us a chance to live? How can I Enjoy life.. what is there to enjoy? WHy did you put us here when there is nothing for us........ Everyone is going to hell. No matter what! If the bible is ture we all are going to GO TO FUCKING HELL.. So why dont I just end it now and go there now?? I dont know I am afraid of death.. and I am afraid of life..Heaven is not even a turning stone... What ever comes and what ever goes...... it is what it is.. and I can't change it.. Maybe oneday my mom dad brother sister will all go to heaven. I hope that they all can go to enternal bliss.... IF they do My life wont be in vain.. I would love to see them all happy again together.. but I know ...and god knows it wont happen... I would give my life and soul for this to happen.
I am just writeing this beucase I cant sleep..and i know there are going to be a bunch of Niggas that write back and talk crap to me..But I ain't tripin.Do what you do.
I am not complaining I am just Venting.......lets end this is a quote..... That nigga Tupac said it all.....
I smoke a blunt to take the pain out And if I wasn't high, I'd probably try to blow my brains out I'm hopeless, they shoulda killed me as a baby And now they got me trapped in the storm, I'm goin crazy Forgive me------Tupac
My homeboy's doin life, his baby momma be stressin Sheddin tears when her son, finally ask that questions Where my daddy at? Mama why we live so poor? Why you cryin? Heard you late night through my bedroom door Now do you love me mama? Whitey keep on callin me nigga? Get my weight up with my hate and pay 'em back when I'm bigger------Tupac
Stuck in a whirlpool gettin' drug down, We was four deep but I'm the only one now, How long will I last before I fall off? Runnin', for my life, in the land of the lost -----X-raided
