I may be unhappier than I have ever been in the past
Will I put the gun to my head and let it blast
Is there an answer, a way to escape
A way to deviate from the pain and hate
It’s like im in living in a nightmare
Unable to steer away from the grueling harsh realities of life
Tossing and turning all night
Hoping tomorrow wont come
Then I wont have to reach out for my gun
Getting closer to these concluding stages of life
Knowing the thoughts up in my head just cant be right
Thoughts that shit aint fair
Feeling like I can’t even get a fresh breath of air
What ever happened to the American dream
I wana hurt someone yell out and scream
Stuck with no way to escape from these punishing realities of life
I wana be able to grow old with a wife
Experience love and learn how to love life
I keep getting told love is right around the way
So I awake to see the next day
Sit in anticipation waiting for the pain and hate to flow away
This life I live slowly moves on as a single sin
My brain seems to have rotted from all the juice gin
How will I a wake to see the sun rise when I leave this life that I so despise
So dark without any light to guide my way
This is no cry for help just what I gatta say
All I seem to feel is pain and hate
My mind is far from straight its in a twisted state
I get joy from other peoples pain like its some kinda game
I may be sick I think theres something wrong up in my brain
I pulled the 410 high on henn with no compunction
I’m running with no destination no goals no hope no motivation
Only thing on my mind is pure destruction
That gin keeps me safe, keeps my emotions from showin
I never regret anything I have no Remorse
Id bet anything my pain stems from a buried source
Will someone please tell me what im livvin for
That gins got me drunk knocking heavens door
I love the gin but its 100% pure addictive sin
Will I put the gun to my head and let it blast
Is there an answer, a way to escape
A way to deviate from the pain and hate
It’s like im in living in a nightmare
Unable to steer away from the grueling harsh realities of life
Tossing and turning all night
Hoping tomorrow wont come
Then I wont have to reach out for my gun
Getting closer to these concluding stages of life
Knowing the thoughts up in my head just cant be right
Thoughts that shit aint fair
Feeling like I can’t even get a fresh breath of air
What ever happened to the American dream
I wana hurt someone yell out and scream
Stuck with no way to escape from these punishing realities of life
I wana be able to grow old with a wife
Experience love and learn how to love life
I keep getting told love is right around the way
So I awake to see the next day
Sit in anticipation waiting for the pain and hate to flow away
This life I live slowly moves on as a single sin
My brain seems to have rotted from all the juice gin
How will I a wake to see the sun rise when I leave this life that I so despise
So dark without any light to guide my way
This is no cry for help just what I gatta say
All I seem to feel is pain and hate
My mind is far from straight its in a twisted state
I get joy from other peoples pain like its some kinda game
I may be sick I think theres something wrong up in my brain
I pulled the 410 high on henn with no compunction
I’m running with no destination no goals no hope no motivation
Only thing on my mind is pure destruction
That gin keeps me safe, keeps my emotions from showin
I never regret anything I have no Remorse
Id bet anything my pain stems from a buried source
Will someone please tell me what im livvin for
That gins got me drunk knocking heavens door
I love the gin but its 100% pure addictive sin
