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I was thinking - I'm getting old and I have no free time anymore because I'm at work full time and school full time...and even when I don't have school I'm too tired to do anything but sit and talk shit on the computer. I used to like making music - but as my other post dictates in the studio folder, I couldn't take any of the studio gangstaism anymore ---no sleep, no free time, writers block all the time, I pretty much gave that up.
-- all i dream of doing is sleeping and reading
-- i want the days back when i used to stay at my grandma's house and just read books all day - fuck tv reading is the shit...you'll never be done reading good books, but you're ALWAYS looking for a good tv show.
-- as per my disturbing post in the whore side of the siccness - I hate all women and I don't want shit to do with them ever again. I view them as less than human beings and even if I didn't feel that way - there is no point in having a bitch friend when I don't even have spare time to sit with the homies in the first place.
-- i hate all my homies for the most part and the ones I don't hate are getting their paper
-- now is a good time to mention that i'm not a good hustler/dealer because i have panick attacks at parties and can't be around people or I go and run and hide in the basement/closet/under the car (yes there)..
-- I'll never have a job I want because I am a piece of white trash and I can't afford to go back to college after my current technical vocational degree to get a bachelors - I wasn't born with money so I will die without it.
-- I can't invent anything and market it because I don't give a fuck about anything except music and I'll never make shit out of that (maybe I will post my shit on the 91siccness and have a bunch of bootleggers compliment my shit oooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhh)
The way I figure, I was talking to someone about how I felt and they basically told me, as a way of inspiring me, that I'm dead and I might as well just kill myself.
Well I found a better way!
I was writing my homie in the penitentiary and he was telling me it's not bad at all up there. You get some ok food (not the best but it's filling), you get to read all the books you want, they even got a little bit of TV, you're surrounded by more real folks than the fake - because all the real ones go to jail or die, and the fake ones live out there.
So I'm thinking hell what do I have to lose! It sounds like the perfect alternative! I don't have the pressures of debt, stress, being homeless, or starving. And fuck that getting raped shit - I already have a place with the muslims if I ever chose to go. One of my neighbors is just begging to get capped with his smart fucking mouth -
I'm thinking honestly this is my destiny. Society doesn't want me, and here's the perfect opportunity! I've put a lot of thought into this I think I'm going to take the plunge into a new life!
I wrote a song about it too - as soon as I have it mixed I'll post it right before i hit the pen.
-- all i dream of doing is sleeping and reading
-- i want the days back when i used to stay at my grandma's house and just read books all day - fuck tv reading is the shit...you'll never be done reading good books, but you're ALWAYS looking for a good tv show.
-- as per my disturbing post in the whore side of the siccness - I hate all women and I don't want shit to do with them ever again. I view them as less than human beings and even if I didn't feel that way - there is no point in having a bitch friend when I don't even have spare time to sit with the homies in the first place.
-- i hate all my homies for the most part and the ones I don't hate are getting their paper
-- now is a good time to mention that i'm not a good hustler/dealer because i have panick attacks at parties and can't be around people or I go and run and hide in the basement/closet/under the car (yes there)..
-- I'll never have a job I want because I am a piece of white trash and I can't afford to go back to college after my current technical vocational degree to get a bachelors - I wasn't born with money so I will die without it.
-- I can't invent anything and market it because I don't give a fuck about anything except music and I'll never make shit out of that (maybe I will post my shit on the 91siccness and have a bunch of bootleggers compliment my shit oooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhh)
The way I figure, I was talking to someone about how I felt and they basically told me, as a way of inspiring me, that I'm dead and I might as well just kill myself.
Well I found a better way!
I was writing my homie in the penitentiary and he was telling me it's not bad at all up there. You get some ok food (not the best but it's filling), you get to read all the books you want, they even got a little bit of TV, you're surrounded by more real folks than the fake - because all the real ones go to jail or die, and the fake ones live out there.
So I'm thinking hell what do I have to lose! It sounds like the perfect alternative! I don't have the pressures of debt, stress, being homeless, or starving. And fuck that getting raped shit - I already have a place with the muslims if I ever chose to go. One of my neighbors is just begging to get capped with his smart fucking mouth -
I'm thinking honestly this is my destiny. Society doesn't want me, and here's the perfect opportunity! I've put a lot of thought into this I think I'm going to take the plunge into a new life!
I wrote a song about it too - as soon as I have it mixed I'll post it right before i hit the pen.
