i can dig that. to me, it is said that we live like we do, it's almost like we can't think for ourselves and shit. we are so worried about what everybody gon say and shit. i know there are alot of people that weren't happy with me cause i joined the military, but you know what, i wanted more for myself. this is a dead end road most of the time. i don't know how many of you read the shit i posted on here a while back, it was some raps i wrote. this one line i said " according to statistics it's a shame that I'm livin this." that is true. Look, i am here in new york and i still can't shake the roots of north side watsonville. i still wear the same shit, and they don't even know what it is here, i get crips trippin off me and shit and i try and explain and they ain't hearin it. but y'all know what, i have done some shit with myself. all but 2 of my closest homeboys dropped out of school, got kids and shit, and get even get a job to raise their kids how they want. i can't talk to my chief at work how i would to my friends and shit, i wasn't sayin that people should try and stay all thugged out at a job interview. there are plenty of hustles out there, why not take the slow nickle? cause the fast bucks don't last half the time. i am happy with myself and i am still alive. that is more than i ever thought i would be able to say at this age.all i am really sayin is, don't think you are a suckel if you don't go into a job or job interview g'd up. i would have loved to do somethin like the east co co homies have, that was my dream since i was i sixth grade, but i didn't go out and get it. but i am alright. i work for the goverment i guess, they technically own me, but it's not like i am out there droppin dimes or settin homeboys up, don't get it twisted. never that. be about yours whatever it is, but think it out, don't think you are lettin the homeboys down by going to a job interview with a shirt and tie instead of ben davis and cortez and shit. this has been too long, but use your brains homies, there is more to life out there for all of us, we can still repp this shit and have a grip, a legal grip. stay up homeboys