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This is some old shit that i wrote about 4 years ago. I just found it in my old notebook and touched it up a lil. Some honest opinions would be nice.
Sometimes im all alone, smokin on a zone/
tryna find a place, a place to call home/
cuz its been way too long i been out here on tha street/
so paranoid at night i cant sleep without my heat/
gotta have a plan, to raise up on my feet/
but it seems like everytime im halfway there its someone tryin to compete/
thats where you fucked up and yo ass done did wrong/
cuz you know im drunk as fuck and my mind is almost gone/
everyday tragedies, fightin wit my family/
and its no prediction that drug addiction has got everybody mad-at-me/
finest form of flattery, is when ya lil bro wanna grow to be just like ya/
but i know its no good despite tha.......fun times that i had/
i'd say my life has been bad/
got my first felony at seventeen for sellin dub bags/
they gave me court fees fines and a fuckin P-O/
problems persisted at home and now im out tha do'/
got kicked out and told dont come back here no mo'/
shits hella cold but im bold and try to cope cuz thats tha way it go/
everyone i know done turned they fuckin back on me/
shit aint coo livin unhappily/
been playin tha fool and now its comin back to me/
gotta turn it around before i become a casualty/
livin a life uncertain/
been hella days since i opened my curtain/
cuz im tired of tha world and its fucked up ways its got me hurtin/
puttin work in as im lurkin in tha dark/
this alcohol got me blurtin obsceneties everytime i try to talk/
will i be written anotha victim outlined in chalk?/
or will i end up in prison on death row awaitin my final walk?/
i just dont know so i try to take it slow/
sip tha 4-0 til it aint no mo'/
clutch tha 44 and im losin my hope/
losin respect for myself as im abusin this dope/
and i been standin in tha rain goin insane wonderin if i'll eva make it/
hidin all my pain undaneath my violence and hatred/
i stay wasted but my problems persist/
when tha man-just slap them hand-cuffs on my wrist
Sometimes im all alone, smokin on a zone/
tryna find a place, a place to call home/
cuz its been way too long i been out here on tha street/
so paranoid at night i cant sleep without my heat/
gotta have a plan, to raise up on my feet/
but it seems like everytime im halfway there its someone tryin to compete/
thats where you fucked up and yo ass done did wrong/
cuz you know im drunk as fuck and my mind is almost gone/
everyday tragedies, fightin wit my family/
and its no prediction that drug addiction has got everybody mad-at-me/
finest form of flattery, is when ya lil bro wanna grow to be just like ya/
but i know its no good despite tha.......fun times that i had/
i'd say my life has been bad/
got my first felony at seventeen for sellin dub bags/
they gave me court fees fines and a fuckin P-O/
problems persisted at home and now im out tha do'/
got kicked out and told dont come back here no mo'/
shits hella cold but im bold and try to cope cuz thats tha way it go/
everyone i know done turned they fuckin back on me/
shit aint coo livin unhappily/
been playin tha fool and now its comin back to me/
gotta turn it around before i become a casualty/
livin a life uncertain/
been hella days since i opened my curtain/
cuz im tired of tha world and its fucked up ways its got me hurtin/
puttin work in as im lurkin in tha dark/
this alcohol got me blurtin obsceneties everytime i try to talk/
will i be written anotha victim outlined in chalk?/
or will i end up in prison on death row awaitin my final walk?/
i just dont know so i try to take it slow/
sip tha 4-0 til it aint no mo'/
clutch tha 44 and im losin my hope/
losin respect for myself as im abusin this dope/
and i been standin in tha rain goin insane wonderin if i'll eva make it/
hidin all my pain undaneath my violence and hatred/
i stay wasted but my problems persist/
when tha man-just slap them hand-cuffs on my wrist
