Is this where you thought you'd be...
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Um, this is not where I thought I'd be to be honest...but then again I wasn't sure if my ass was ever gonna do music so that is a plus. It is a totally different road because I was thinking I would be settled and possibly married by now...also I was 5 years into the computer field and thought I had a career there until Silicon Valley became Skeleton Valley with layoffs and no jobs. And about the change....I feel different at times...to me it was a good move then bad move. The industry makes me hate it, but then it is like 2nd nature to me now so I don't know. We'll see...
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To tell you the truth I never thought I would live past my early 20's ( I'm 26 now ) so I never gave a fuck, and did nothing to better myself. Now that it is years later and I have better'd myself I'm still playing catch up for all the time I wasted. And it makes me fuckin sick sometimes when I think about it, I fucked up, and yeah I'm doing ok right now but thats not much of a consolidation to me to tell you the truth.
To tell you the truth I never thought I would live past my early 20's ( I'm 26 now ) so I never gave a fuck, and did nothing to better myself. Now that it is years later and I have better'd myself I'm still playing catch up for all the time I wasted. And it makes me fuckin sick sometimes when I think about it, I fucked up, and yeah I'm doing ok right now but thats not much of a consolidation to me to tell you the truth.
View, it's never to late, but I feel you on the wasting time part, 'cuz I did that for way too long. Someone once said, "it's not how good you live, but how long you live good". Leave the past where it is and live well into the future. Let's all do that.
I never thought I'd be where I'm at now. I always knew I wanted to be an entertainer, but it took me awhile to realize it could be done. I never in all my life imagined I'd shave my head bald either but here I am. LOL
At one point in my carreer I was getting airplay on local (my area) radio, Bay Area support (kmel, and other bay stations) and even had airplay down in LA. I've had to start all over with this industry, learn to to play new roles in it, and that's kind of why I feel like I've strayed off my path and fell behind, but recently I think I'm headed back to where I left off. I've got that hunger to conquer and achieve things again and I believe this year, will at the very least be a start foward to my destination.
I never thought I'd be where I'm at now. I always knew I wanted to be an entertainer, but it took me awhile to realize it could be done. I never in all my life imagined I'd shave my head bald either but here I am. LOL
At one point in my carreer I was getting airplay on local (my area) radio, Bay Area support (kmel, and other bay stations) and even had airplay down in LA. I've had to start all over with this industry, learn to to play new roles in it, and that's kind of why I feel like I've strayed off my path and fell behind, but recently I think I'm headed back to where I left off. I've got that hunger to conquer and achieve things again and I believe this year, will at the very least be a start foward to my destination.
I agree with you guys. For a long time I kept dwelling on what went wrong in my past, and how it made my current life unhappy and how it was all screwed up. But after being blessed with a lil one I can't help but be thankful. Thankful that she was brought in my life to change it... for the best. I took life way too serious before she was born, and now I can't help but take it for granted. Who knows what will happen to me ya know! This is pretty much where I thought I'd be, only with a different name and person.
I never thought I would be were I am at right now I am 19 and I'm livin the life traveling all over the states ( Job shit) gettin paid, got a coo ass ride, down ass girl... I am tryin to make the best out of this fucced up life we livin, I guess its better than running the streets my whole life......Only Time Will Tell Tho!
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That is a very true quote.
Leaving the past in the past is easier said than done sometimes. My scars are not healing, I guess if I'm not looking at my heart bleed, than maybe in my mind it's really not bleeding, but when I feel weak, depressed and stressed out I know it really is. This is me and I cant change, I've accepted this fact along time ago. Times are hard for me right now, but I still get up everyday and do what I gotta do. I am my own worst enemy. But dont get me wrong either I haven't givin up on anything, and in the long run I will show everyone who held me back that they failed, even if I die in the process from the wounds people inflicted upon my heart. And even if this body of flesh and blood fail me, my heart, pride and direction in life, will live on...........I will never fail.
View 1 AOD ORG till my last breath is breathed...............
Leaving the past in the past is easier said than done sometimes. My scars are not healing, I guess if I'm not looking at my heart bleed, than maybe in my mind it's really not bleeding, but when I feel weak, depressed and stressed out I know it really is. This is me and I cant change, I've accepted this fact along time ago. Times are hard for me right now, but I still get up everyday and do what I gotta do. I am my own worst enemy. But dont get me wrong either I haven't givin up on anything, and in the long run I will show everyone who held me back that they failed, even if I die in the process from the wounds people inflicted upon my heart. And even if this body of flesh and blood fail me, my heart, pride and direction in life, will live on...........I will never fail.
View 1 AOD ORG till my last breath is breathed...............
I feel you View. The way I look at it is, if people fuck you over and it hurts, then you had to pay that price to find out you didnt' really need them in your live. You can't buy experience like that. In the long run, it makes your success even greater. :devious:
I'm looking at the good things more. Though I'm not where I thought I'd be:
I'm still here (I think it's a good thing)
I'm still doing music and doing it better (and that's is my true love, so that's good)
I'm far better off than some
I used to have long hair that ladies loved but now they love to rub my bald head (improvements, all the way around) LOL
And a couple of the Dugout Ladies would probably REALLY jump into a Jello pool with me. I can't complain at all.
I'm looking at the good things more. Though I'm not where I thought I'd be:
I'm still here (I think it's a good thing)
I'm still doing music and doing it better (and that's is my true love, so that's good)
I'm far better off than some
I used to have long hair that ladies loved but now they love to rub my bald head (improvements, all the way around) LOL
And a couple of the Dugout Ladies would probably REALLY jump into a Jello pool with me. I can't complain at all.
