I don't think there is anything wrong.
You probably have no life, no job, and nothing to live for and you want people around you to justify it by thinking you are mentally ill. You do it so much that you even post it here so you yourself believe it, but in reality you're just a lazy good for nothing waste of molecules.
Your kind is a dime a dozen.
Your only use on this planet is to turn oxygen into carbon for the trees.
Go kill yourself.