take me away from all this pain..cuz I've pursued a life of peace
but there's no heaven on earth..so thoughts of suicide increase
bein consumed by the beast..so happiness is what I'm after
each decision I make expresses tears instead of laughter
in confession with a pastor..but it seems to make it worse
never believin in religion..it was me who came first
there's no escapin this curse..constantly hate who I've become
on the brink of givin up..so I proceed to drinkin rum
I'm sippin 151 keepin me numb from all my worries
yet it's hard to see the future when my minds clouded and blurry
people try to reassure me..that I'll make it through the storm
but I'm just roamin through life with no particular form
as twisted visions still swarm I'm at the point of no return
because I've failed all my lessons there's nothin left for me to learn
and I continually yearn.. to be the best that I can be
but even in my dreams I never seem to reach my destiny
and people thinkin less of me..just makes me wonder why I'm tryin
I've hurt people I love and half the time I feel like cryin
for some reason I'm relyin on some faith I know has vanished
just survivin on will and don't know how the hell I've managed
my mentallity's damaged as well as my ambition
left a trail of destruction created by my bad decisions
everyday has me wishin that I could have the life I've wanted
but obstacles and negativity are keepin me daunted
I'm continually haunted by all the wrong that I have done
and in this world of so many it wouldn't hurt losin one
should I continue to run or simply end this expedition
or just walk the flatline givin in to preminitions
instead of reminiscin ..on the past and what's been wasted
lookin back at my dream and wonderin why ever chased it
since I can't erase shit and my pain will never cease
I'll take the easy way out and stay forever in peace
real shit...:devious:
