has there ever been anything so out of your control in your life?
- Thread starter Tooper
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Yea, I had to have Open Heart Surgery almost three years ago. I Knew a few months before i had to have it. So everyday it was gettin closer for the surgery and everyday i was gettin more scared.
They removed my Aorta (Main valve from your heart pumping blood to the rest of your body) they stopped my heart and breathing for a half hour and let a machine keep me alive and replaced it with a mechanical one (metal). The surgery took 9 hours. I have a big ass scar down my chest, and I have to take Blood thinners everyday for the rest of my life to prevent my blood from clotting.
I have to watch what I do. Even if i cut myself shaving, it can bleed for hours. Cant get into fights. Cant eat Salads or any green vegatable (becuz its filled with vitamin K which clots the blood) And i have to carry a card on me at all times incase something happens to me to let the docs know i have a fake Aorta and on Blood thinners.
You can hear my heart tick everytime it pumps. sounds like a ticking clock. use to drive my girl nutz when we first got together. but now she dont even notice it.
But the scariest day in my life that was out of my control was being in the operating room with my mom and dad before they put me to sleep knowing that it could be the last time i see them and i see the world.
Now im just happy to be alive.
They removed my Aorta (Main valve from your heart pumping blood to the rest of your body) they stopped my heart and breathing for a half hour and let a machine keep me alive and replaced it with a mechanical one (metal). The surgery took 9 hours. I have a big ass scar down my chest, and I have to take Blood thinners everyday for the rest of my life to prevent my blood from clotting.
I have to watch what I do. Even if i cut myself shaving, it can bleed for hours. Cant get into fights. Cant eat Salads or any green vegatable (becuz its filled with vitamin K which clots the blood) And i have to carry a card on me at all times incase something happens to me to let the docs know i have a fake Aorta and on Blood thinners.
You can hear my heart tick everytime it pumps. sounds like a ticking clock. use to drive my girl nutz when we first got together. but now she dont even notice it.
But the scariest day in my life that was out of my control was being in the operating room with my mom and dad before they put me to sleep knowing that it could be the last time i see them and i see the world.
Now im just happy to be alive.
My little brother is in jail for armed robbery (some shit he didn't do). But he hasn't gone to trial yet. He is there cuzz dude that did it (who was supposed to be his boy) lied & said he had somethin to do with it. It feels out of control, because I know that this is one thing I can't do anything about to make the outcome be what I want it to be. This sucks.
shit i use to think bout everyday is whtf was gonna happen to me i got kicked out at14 on my own didnt kow were to go i was slangin in the streets just to survive gettin fucked up everyday thinkin m gonna die but shit im still here and its like i dont give a fuck cause im still on my own and makin it and i do believe there is a god cause im still here
