Well one thing's for sure, I aint satisfied in my current situation. I don't know if its entirely myself or entirely kids these days or a mix of both, but I honestly don't know what specifically I can do to improve myself and, by extension, my situation.
In all honesty, between elementary school, when I was extremely outgoing and tried to make friends with every kid and got extremely badly bullied, and now, I developed severe social anxiety.
That, combined with a growing hatred towards, and isolation from, other kids my age as a result of 17 years of nothing but backstabbing, disrespect and bullying, is making this whole 'making friends' thing difficult.
I know those are areas I need to work on, but I don't know how. Plus I really don't know anyone my age at all. As in, I'm totally isolated from em.