Did You Ever Wanna Die?
- Thread starter Locahontas
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Locahontas - it's obvious your fucked up events in the preceding weeks that you're going through hard times. i've offered to reach out a few times, but you're unresponsive. Are you posting just to vent, or is this a call for some patience and help?
You're the one and only female I have any respect for on the siccness - so this is just an offer. It's also the last of it's kind.
You're the one and only female I have any respect for on the siccness - so this is just an offer. It's also the last of it's kind.
Too many suicide attempts to even try counting. Wrists are all tore up with a haphazard highway of purple scar tissue. Back in 95, took a bottle of pills, was in the hospital for a couple of weeks, and my livers still fucked up. Though time has passed, the suicidal feelings don't ever really go away. I even wrote a novel, TENDING TOWARD LARCRIMAL EXHAUSTION that has a lot of themes of suicide. It was basically away to excorcise all the demons i had inside. These days when I think about blowing off my head, which sounds like a viable alternative a lot of the time, I look at this picture, and then I realize that there's no glory in suicide.
I anticipate death, not because I want to die, shit I want to live as long as possible, but because I think it will be an awesome experience, such as meeting my creator or seeing passed loved ones, answers to so many of life's riddles, the possiblities are endless as to what death may bring......I think death is a part of life so embrace it.........
now to answer the original question, yes I have, not that I would ever kill myself or try, but I've pondered it.......even in my darkest hours, I've felt that this was an existence I wanted to hold on to until the very end no matter what........not looking foward to how i die though........i pray its in my sleep and painless........probably wont be though.........
now to answer the original question, yes I have, not that I would ever kill myself or try, but I've pondered it.......even in my darkest hours, I've felt that this was an existence I wanted to hold on to until the very end no matter what........not looking foward to how i die though........i pray its in my sleep and painless........probably wont be though.........
When I was younger there were times when I just gave up on life. But instead of suicide I just turned into a completely reckless individual. I didnt care about my life or anyone elses, I did a lot of crazy fucked up shit and was always gettin kicked out of places and catchin cases. Long story short, if you feel down or question whether you wanna live or not talk to somebody POSITIVE, not your average selfish ass insignificant fucks.