im thinkin of actually just leaving the state...lol...no lie, but im sure it follows you right ?
man if i started makin payments on my debt i'd be workin for nothin practically....i know going bankrupt fucks you for like 7 years, no bank acounts or nothin in ya name....just straight cash and check cashing places...im wondering if leaving the state would help...im gettin sick of cali anyways man, there really aint shit left here for me....fa real
or fake my death... breakin into the morgue would be kinda fun , but cuttin off some guys arms and legs and knockin out all his teeth wouldnt be...well maybe if i was drunk.
but yeah, i owe a lot...i really have to come to live without needing credit, even before when i didnt have credit at all i would get declined for everything, then i got credit and they said it wasnt good enough, then i had too many credit cards (2)....then i just ended up with hella bills from shit theres no way i could pay (hospital bills..etc) and they all went to collections, then i had bad credit...
you just cant win....but i gave up on credit cards, places that require a credit check to live there...and any type of cc other than my atm card...when you need cash...get a paycheck advance...
i would like to own a nice car one day....but i've realized i'll never be able to commit to any kind of 2-5 year contract and with my credit my payments would be too high...so until i find a another broad wit a car/credit or can afford to buy a car in the 90's or 2000's then fuck it....
yeah i fucked myself.....oh well, you learn to live with it really.....just like i've accepted the fact that i'll never get to college to get a degree and reallly make some $$$....that was determined when i was 15 and moved out on my own, i aint had all the breaks like some people, like parents that DONT smoke dope or get killed by the fucker that beat them for years..i had to raise myself...
there no point in really going to college for me....spend 3-5 years gettin some degree so i cant hunt for a job with a piece of paper in my hand that says im smart....man im gonna be dead in 10-15 years, why waste the time.....if im ever gonna "make it big" it aint gonna be through college....i'll be lucky if it will even be legal...
i mean we got one life to live and it aint like God gonna run a credit check before he let me in...or show me to the one way elevator.
and even if a muthafucka do "make it big" it aint like you can take the shit with you.....all that little shit thats so important to you gonna end up in a dumpster...in a garage sale, or at salvation army....cause it dont mean shit to anyone else.