taurus pt-145 .45 caliber semi auto 11 shot....never leaves me lonely..loves to be fingerfucked, waits for me patiently and always has my back when everyone else actin like bitches...
i honestly dont have a best friend...i have maybe a handful of people i can maybe trust
i think Loki said it best...
"picture me, not tryin to let this shit get to me....
got old school ryders who act a bitch to me
got bitches who lookin like they up to trickery
can count on one hand those that stick with with me
the rest of ya'll aint shit to me"
honestly man im a good person and the rest of this world has hidden agendas, double meanings, and is full of backstabbers....i've learned to grow and give up on trusting too many souls on this earth after about 13 or 14 when what I considered to be my best friends, closest road doggs...etc....robbed me, beat me to within an inch of my life and left me for dead near some railroad tracks back in the early 90's...i had to drag myself home once i regained consiousness, bleeding from everywhere, two swollen shut eyes so bad i could barely see out them...still drunk off the 151...robbed for the little bullshit i had on me $60 and a pager...i kept those bloody khaki's for a long time as a reminder never to trust anyone again...these were cats i rode with for years..did everything under the sun with, cats i honestly trusted my life too....after that..never again...probably what started my anxiexy and insecurity with trust issues in life...that and all the shit pops put me through when he was on dope...
Fuck a friend....as pops would say "those aint ya friends....they're ya associates" a lotta people tend to overuse words like "friend" and "love" and shit like that...it was a hard lesson learned but whatever dont kill you only makes you stronger....like i said theres maybe 5 people in this world i say I can truly trust...and 2-3 of them are dead...I have close associates that i would trust to an extent...and its a damn shame but i cant even trust my bitch...my 1/2 brother being probably #1 i can trust...but he oin Colorado...so....shit i cant even trust myself to tell you the truth....
So a best friend....closest thing would be myself, cause in the end Im the only one I can depend on (1/2 the time i cant even do that though)...i find friends in inanimate objects and material possesions...money, guns, drugs, and alcohol......people are generally too shady to be trusted..inanimateobjects and material posessions never lie..cheat or steal from you...