i'm fine thanks.
i've known from my mother she was sick even before i was born.we all had hard times in the 80s because medicen would not work for her.back then the medicen was not helpfull the side effects made it worse so bad that she would'nt take the medicen.it was not untill the early 90's that they had good medicen that actually worked.so i seen alot of fucked up shit with my mom.
luckily i got sick in my early 20's typical for the symptoms to show up at that time.i was given the best medication for it with little to no side effects.so the voices went away after about a month of taking it but i was still in a fucked up mindstate afterward the trauma of it took a toll on me.
you see how i mentioned it's ENLIGHTENING like john nash said.you actually beleive in delusions (fantasys) you are the only one in this realm and you think you know more than the commen person.it seems like you got a gift to understand more then the next man and that no one else is like you.
well sorry to say you are'nt given these special powers at all your really "crazy" at that point.
it's in the recovery that those feelings and emotions go away and your left to think everything you thought was fact was really false.there is no alternate reality you thought you taped into.
it's really deep.
you can't ignore voices in your head when your trying to relax or go to sleep.they are tormenting.like for me i thought i was being harrassed by nieghbors.
it's a long story.but that basicly sums it up.
i thought they were nieghbors because the voices sounded like they were from a distance.i heard up to 6 main voices boys,girls,men,women.and other people like friends.
very strange.
