trust me, it sucks. I feel like a failure, but its also taken me a long time to realize that I am not a failure, I just married the wrong fuckin person. I have regrets, and I'm sure even though he will never admit it, he had regrets too. He has put me through absolute hell for the last 4 or so years, and it took me to really sit down and realize how much I get respected outside of my house to understand how much being disrespected inside my house was affecting me.